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When I became widowed, I learned a few hard truths real quick!
To name one:
Everything we do as widows feels wildly more difficult
and....There is a HUGE problem with society’s expectations of Widowed Women
that no one is talking about.
FOR CENTURIES WIDOWED WOMEN HAVE BEEN EXPECTED TO ACT A CERTAIN WAY.
...to live in a way that helps EVERYONE ELSE to be okay.
OUR FEELINGS BE DAMNED!
We've been taught to believe it is what it is.
There's a reason for that.
It's because no one is addressing the root problem.
The root problem is widowhood is different than any other death or loss .
Which makes everyone else feel uncomfortable because they don't have a clue what to say or do.
We don't have to stand by and let ourselves feel bad about these ridiculous expectations!
Today, more and more widowed women will choose to stand in their confidence and power.
No more sitting on the
sidelines of life
filled self-doubt and regrets
When I became a widow, I didn't know who I should be.
Or how I was "supposed" to act.
Hi I'm Terriann
I felt awkward and uncertain with NO clue where to start to reconstruct my life because let's face it as widows we all have to figure out how to live on our own.
After the loss of my husband deep in my bones my entire world shattered. Coupled with several other losses I was a burned out mess.
Widowhood is the hardest thing I've ever done.
I tried getting help...
but facts are if they haven't been through it they couldn't really help.
Frozen in time and misery.
I was forced to manage all the things that fell on my shoulders whether I had the wherewithal or not...
I don't have to preach to the choir...
you know first hand how hard it is to lose your person.
Becoming part of an exclusive club where only widows belong
a club none of us want to be part of.
more and more each day?
IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE THIS WAY
"Terriann shows us how to cope and how to move forward.
There's a life to live and love for all of us. It's something I've
not found elsewhere.
Being able to organize myself and my life,
saves tons of stress and time so I can do the things I love!"
If I'm guessing correctly... this may resonate 👇🏼
If you're like me - I'm guessing you've done much of the following:
tried dozens of things... anything to get a grasp on life only to feel discouraged and
quite frankly pissed off...
...working with multiple doctors trying tons of medications
several therapists who were not widowed and basically had no clue
the books oh mah gosh all the books... read soooo many self-help books
all to keep coming up flat or with minimal forward motion hardly sustainable results
I was seriously close to accepting my small mediocre lonely life
With a lot of time and money spent and I do mean a lot...
things FINALLY STARTED TO CLICK but WOW
I had EFFORT FATIGUE (it's a thing dag-nabbit!) it was suffocating doing it all on my own. I was consumed with getting "better"!
I became an advocate and liaison for my sister widows to find their
new happy life too!!
FINALLY, I FELT SO DARN GOOD AGAIN!
Renegade Widow emerged
I built a business and life I love living.
I became a champion for my sister widow's MIND-BODY-SOUL wellness
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Journaling causes you to be introspective with your thoughts and feelings, thereby gaining valuable self-knowledge.
Grief is NOT for the weak of mind. It takes grit and courage.
Let me just tell you, I have a lot of Grit and Courage. (wiping sweat from my brow).
Take a few minutes here 👇🏼👇🏼
to read some of my personal grief highlight reels...
When I was eleven, I had a hamster named Twitter. My cousin Robin had a hamster named Witter.
Twitter and I were best buddies. I knew how much he loved me.
We’d play every day after school. I kept his pen clean and decked out with toys to keep him busy and happy when he wasn’t sleeping and while I was at school.
When I was home, he would nestle in my pocket, both he and I feeling warm and secure. Twitter made my heart swell.
One day, my cousin and I decided to go into business with Twitter and Witter.
We sat down at our kitchen table while we waited for cookies to come out of the oven. My mom promised us we could have cookies and milk as soon as they were cooled enough to eat.
With pencil and paper in hand, we wrote a business plan on how to make money with our hamsters. We had much to learn...
Nonetheless, we were super motivated to monetize our pets.
The final pieces of the puzzle were:
When we could sell the babies.
What we could charge for each baby.
Low and behold... before our industrious business plan could come to fruition, I found Twitter dead in his pen.
His little body cold and still.
I ran out of my bedroom holding Twitter in the palms of my hands willing him to wake up.
Crying hysterically, I found my dad sitting on the couch watching the nightly news.
Startled he looked at me, “what’s the matter?”, he asked fear and urgency in his voice.
Sobbing, I finally caught my breath, “Twitter is dead” sob-sob-sob.
Befuddled, he was quiet for just a few beats.
Here’s the thing about my dad, he hated when anyone he loved was hurting. It’s as if he felt the pain himself. He would do anything it took to stop the pain, not always in a helpful or nurturing way. If money couldn’t fix it, he was at a loss.
My loving dad was extremely sensitive in an empathic way.
As he struggled on what to say, more seconds ticked by.
My sobbing filled the room.
“Terriann... jeeze” he exclaimed. “Stop crying. Imagine if it was your brother or sister?"
"Twitter was just a hamster!”
He then gathered me in his big strong arms holding me while I cried it out.
The solace fell short though. I felt I had to stop crying so my dad felt okay. I was fully ready and willing to stuff my own pain so my dad could be okay.
My broken heart was left unvalidated.
In that moment, I knew I was on my own in my grief and that it was better to hide it.
How quickly I learned.
Four years later, when my sister was 20 and I was 15, she was tragically killed in an accident.
The pain was mind-blowing.
The grief that tore my heart in two was again left without comfort.
My parents didn’t know how to console. They became frozen in their own pain… a pain that for the rest of their life remained unresolved buried deep inside.
It all got carried into adulthood... life became full of baggage and strife.
I was 47 when my husband died.
I’ve had my fair share death and grief along with all of the strife and hardship that come with it.
Over the course of many years, more loss ensued.
Lacking wisdom or knowledge of how to process my grief and emotions
naively, I continued the pattern of what I was taught.
I was conditioned to stuff heart wrenching sadness as best I could.
Smiles generously given... even when I was so very sad.
I did whatever it took to make sure everyone else was okay. I didn’t want to make them uncomfortable by crying or showing any sadness.
I was just freaking dandy.
It comes to no surprise, my mind and body suffered with...
achy, full body inflammation.
which, by the way, all of which became worse and worse as the years went by.
It wasn't until after my husband passed away from an intense battle with cancer...
I realized I could not outrun the detrimental ramifications to my own life any longer.
Stuffing and avoiding the pain from grief was no longer an option.
My mind and body felt as though a wrecking ball had smashed through my world.
Following the loss for near to a year,
I sat on the couch trying to recover
with little to no success to reclaim my life.
I was exhausted mentally and physically.
I ate very little
and when I did eat, it typically consisted of a greasy plate of
hardly the nutrition I needed to recover and heal.
Eventually, I got the nerve to step into my late husband’s garage
full of his presence consumed with trepidation
and walk out, leaving all the things that only I could deal with.
There were tools from his trade,
a collection of CD’s to rival any music store,
his beloved sand rail,
Every square inch screamed of the life ended too soon.
I couldn’t stand the thought of the monumental task of going through everything.
I knew I had to do it.
I had to purge.
It was when the pain of all of his belongings sitting there useless
and suffocating was greater than the pain of dealing with it
the focus and effort to purge
to give away
But still, I was frozen with grief lodged in every part of my mind and body.
I didn’t know where to start.
One day, in a rush of painful motivation I took action
I sought help
I phoned the Hospice organization we had used.
Seems so small of a step but it was a HUGE STEP in the right direction asking them what I should do to get over this horrific tundra of pain.
I didn’t really have anyone to help or to give me solid advice.
I was alone in the misery and void.
They suggested I set up an appointment with a therapist.
Finally, I knew where to start. Before I could second guess myself, I set up the appointment.
We met every week. Together, we worked on not only present grief but past grief that had been lodged in my gut, stuck there for more than four decades. She helped me to develop a plan that felt manageable.
Some days I'd work only 10 minutes but it was progress.
When I kept my word to myself and did the 10 minutes, I felt better. I felt respect for myself for keeping to my word.
This was empowering!!
I’d focus on one small section of the garage at a time or one dresser drawer at a time. Little by little my therapist talked me through all of it.
When I completed a task for the day, I’d donate one bag or two boxes, sometimes more sometimes less.
Progress. I felt giddy with progress.
Recalling a particular day after a short session of organizing and sorting in the garage, I was full of anxious tension.
Standing in the kitchen emptying the dishwasher, I could feel the angst wound tight in my chest.
As I placed a couple of glasses in the cupboard, my eye caught a large sunny yellow salad bowl. It matched a set of ceramic dishes, each painted in bright beautiful colors. The yellow bowl had a chip that had been there for a good long while.
I just couldn’t bring myself to throw it away but I also couldn’t use it.
I realized it had been nagging my subconscious. I hated that it had been chipped so I left it in the cupboard.
Whispering that I had no control over the bowl or my life.
Something snapped inside of me.
Slowly, I reached up, grabbed the sunny yellow bowl I had loved. As if in a trance I pivoted my feet to face an opening leading into our Arizona room.
As hard as I could, I threw the bowl onto the hard tile floor. The bowl smashed into pieces. Splendid sunny yellow shards spreading across the floor.
It felt good.
It felt so good I reached up grabbing a dark sage green cereal bowl also chipped.
I threw it.
With a mix of sunny yellow and sage green scattered gloriously, I decided there was a call for some vibrant red. I turned back taking a vibrant red coffee cup out of the cupboard a quick glance at the small chip just small enough to render the cup useless.
I threw the vibrant red cup.
Releasing a deep breath, I felt tension leaving my body. I felt vindicated for the pain of purging both behind me and still yet to come. I decided I had done enough for that day.
Freedom rushed through me.
I poured myself a glass of wine.
Gingerly stepping past the colorful chips of broken ceramic still scattered about. Outside I slipped my shoes off. Stepping first one foot and then the other, I sat resting my feet in the swimming pool. Frigid water soothing my aching feet. My aching heart.
Something had changed. The shroud of “things” no longer seemed to have power over me. I felt a shift in the strength I knew I held.
I was going to be okay. I knew it.
The following Monday was my weekly visit with my therapist. I shared the dish crashing experience with her.
She said, “Isn’t it grand to release the things that no longer serve you?”
From that day on, it was easier and easier to sort, organize, and purge the things that I no longer clung to as a way to keep me tethered to the past.
I’d play music.
Music of my own choosing.
Blaring through the speakers, I’d catch myself singing. I’d smile and continue on.
Making that first call to ask for help was a monumental time in my grief journey.
I realized it had been up to me to take action.
I had risen to the occasion to reclaim peace in the very pain that had kept me stuck for much longer than I like to think about.
I learned to block my time to keep me focused.
It felt so very grand to load my truck with bags and boxes. Hauling as many as I could to donate to people that had a bigger need for what I had clung to.
My heart felt expansive and free.
It turns out, taking action no matter how uncertain I felt was exactly what HAD to happen.
For some, it’s longer.
For others, it’s quicker.
Only you know when it’s time for you to take action to get you where you want or need to go.
I will caution you to pay close attention to the prompts you may be feeling versus avoidance and denial that can keep you stalled for many years... maybe a lifetime.
Just like my parents, I could have buried my head in the sand staying sad and stuck but I decided that was not what I wanted for my life.
It seems as though God helped me each step of the way. He knew I needed the time and rest I took that first year. He also knew when I need to catapult into action to find myself.
He led me exactly where I needed to go.
I knew enough to follow. I felt strongly that God led me exactly where HE wanted me to be.
The journey was bumpy and hard.
BUT I know it all had to happen so I could help YOU and all of the widows that come into my life.
By Terriann Muller, a Renegade Widow
even if it feels impossible!
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Working with Terriann's courses has given me renewed hope. I no longer feel guilty for investing some time and money on myself. I made the decision to be happy again. I became obsessed on wanting to be happy again.
It takes courage to open up, be vulnerable, dive in, and make the decision to be happy again! Terriann is authentic and shares her firsthand experiences and knowledge with raw transparency, which is encouraging and inspirational. I was gently and lovingly helped to accept my story and given a positive outlook to my new confident self.
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Each lesson can be completed in 20 minutes or less. You do have the latitude to spend more time reflecting, journaling, and working toward your best days!
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I'm helping care for my parents or young children- will this help me?
More than ever, you need this program! As a caregiver, along with all of the other demands of your regular life, it is so easy to lose a grip on all of the balls you need to keep in the air. We believe when you take a few minutes a day to take care of yourself, you will FEEL MORE PEACE, MORE CALM, AND HAVE MORE TIME to take care of all of your responsibilities.
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Will you be adding more programs in the future?
Yes, at Renegade Widow, we offer a selection of options to support our Renegade Widow clients. If you feel you could benefit from some additional support, I am happy to hop on a call to chat it over. I'm thrilled to have you as part of our extended family and want to help in any and all the ways I can.
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